Minggu, Juli 31, 2011

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Wew, it's almost 2 months since my last post.. no wonder gue diberondong orang-orang buat nulis lagi *minta ditimpuk* :p


Oh yes, I'm hooommmeeee!!! :D
Sebenernya udah dari July 6 maghrib sampai rumah, I just had a lot of things to do jadi baru sempet blogging (oh well i'm making excuse lol). Masih jetlag dan ngantuk ternyata rumah gue lagi direnovasi dan be-ran-tak-an. Hadeeh --" Tau-taunya pas gue udah siap tidur - berdaster pula! - datanglah para manusia fresh high school graduates alias "mantan" teman-teman seangkatan gue dari jaman teka: Ika, Hanny, Widya, Dichiel, Randy, Isal, dan Archie dengan sekotak chocolate cake, puding, dan handmade welcome home board! Ya ampun terharuuuu :') Makasih ya teman-teman.. :* Udah sempet ketemuan juga sama temen-temen IPA 1 (ya ampun kangen kangen kangen) dan sebagian besar anak-anak #smanitra51 (yang belum ketemu gue berarti sombong nggak main-main ke SMA!) dengan beragam rencana kuliah dan obrolan-obrolan seru soal kost-an dan OSPEK kuliah.


What do I feel? Sedih sih. Iri dengan KTM dan jaket-jaket almamater kampus mereka: kuning, biru, cokelat, hijau - umm pokoknya kayak pelangi. Kangen saat-saat bareng mereka yang udah nggak ada lagi, atau mungkin (nggak selebay itu) nggak seintens dan sekompak dulu. Tapi ini salah satu hal yang gue pelajari dari program ini (this is why I won't ever regret, I can always learn any-thing from this journey!) adalah memahami kalau hidup itu dinamis. Kalau hidup itu mengalir, kalau nggak mau disebut berputar kayak rotasi mode fashion (nah lo yang ini out of context, lo siento :p). Namanya perpisahan ya tidak terelakkan. Kita selalu bakal menemui namanya saat perpisahan yang penuh dengan pelukan dan airmata. Tapi juga selalu ada awal dan awal-awal baru lain. Kita nggak bisa berharap dunia bakal berhenti kalau kita nggak melangkah maju :) 


"Though we go our separate ways, i won't forget so don't forget the memories we made.." Salah satu kutipan dari lagu Please remember-nya Leann Rimes yang gue nyanyiin atas permintaan guru gue di baccalaurate service. Liriknya asli ngena banget tentang yang namanya "memories". Tapi kenangan itu bukan jebakan buat kita terperangkap di masa lalu kan? :)


So singkat cerita gue udah merelakan (gayaaa) kalau teman-teman gue yang tadinya seangkatan sama gue udah melangkah duluan lebih dekat ke cita-cita mereka through college (but who knows gue bakal mengejar? hihi balapan kuda kali :p). Hanya saja denger cerita-cerita mereka gue jadi menggalau lagi soal kuliah. Huaaaaa :'( Oh ya btw kak Pablo, Riri, Sah, Septi, Cipto, Anggit, Yoga, dll thanks buku-buku sumbangannya yaaa! Semoga bermanfaat buat gue. Yang masih punya buku-buku dimasukkin kardus aja ya kakak-kakak langsung bawa ke Smanitra, gue di IPA 5 kok ngga kemana-mana :p


Yes I miss states, Dawson, Weezorak, Huss, Colepaugh, Handayani, friends all over the world, all orientations and trips, AFS/YES 2010-2011, kakak-kakak volunteer.. But I'm so glad to be home again. Trust me you'll love your family more after your exchange year! Dan jujur gue jadi merasa agak-agak.. spoiled, apalagi di awal-awal pas baru dateng. hihi. Tapi bukan berarti exchange yearnya jadi sia-sia loh yaaa :p

Oh ya, papa baru ajaa dilantik jadi doktor dua minggu yang lalu! Alhamdulillah.. :) Gue, Ufal, sama mama sampe izin dari sekolah masing-masing buat dateng ke promosi terbukanya di pascasarjana FEUI. Tante Yessy, Ilmi, Izza, Nenek, Oma, para om, tante, dan sepupu juga pada hadir. Aww, sidang S3 itu keren sekali yaaa jadi mupeng gue huhu T.T Apalagi walau nggak puas ngiterin komplek UI hati gue rasanya sangat merindu mau kuliah di sana --" I will insya Allah. Bismillah.. :)


Ngeliat papa dan Pak Firmanzah Phd (dekan FEUI yang baru 30-an) ingin rasanya terus belajar sampai ke jenjang doktOr! (nggak harus doktEr kan hehe :p) Si papa malah katanya mau ambil post doctoral (Ya Tuhan -.-).. Semangat gue yang berapi-api buat study abroad sekarang malah surut. Gue mau kuliah S1 di sini saja dulu supaya bisa volunteering di binabud dan "melakukan sesuatu" alias bikin proyek yang bertujuan bikin perubahan-perubahan kecil.. Insya Allah bisa dimulai dari diri sendiri dulu..

Udah dimarahin mama belum shalat dzuhur, to be continue amigos!


-AB-

Jumat, Juni 03, 2011

Things I'm Gonna Miss
part 1.

1. Go to school at 7.00 am (oh yeah, need to adjust with 05.30 again -___-)
2. My lunch bag :p I usually prepare it by myself, but sometimes when I'm late the lunch bag is on the table already. Thank you mom :*
3. Walking to the school bus stop. When I'm late I usually run.. when I'm too early I like to walk as slow as I could, enjoying the fresh air :)
4. Yellow school bus number 69 :) Say hi to Steve (the driver) and chatting with friends. Sometimes reading when I had test that day and i fell asleep the night before :p
5. Go to library before the bell rings. Say hi to Ms. Allers, asking to print something, read the newspaper, browsing, and chatting with friends (or finishing homework :p)
6. Chorus! yay! Write the schedule and change the date on the board. Chatting with my beloved classmates, warm up together (included waiting for everybody to get ready, hahah -.-), sing a lot of different pieces. Sometimes Mrs. Rob got mad when somebody kept talking, joking, or didn't pay attention :p People makin excuses, playing the piano when Mrs. Rob went to bathroom :p Watchin movies, quizes, tests, sharing, take pics together, pickin on each other :p The field trip, rehearsal, audition, competition, concert.. Everything! Just too much to explain.
7. IB chem with funny Mrs. inman :p The labs, disscussing things, breakfast together :p talking about food which led to random stuffs with Kyra and Melia, laughing together :D
8. English 12 "really?" "seriously?" with Mr. Ricci who always tries to be mean (no you're not sir.. keep trying! :D) reading poem, and analyzing them together, learning history, watching Mr. Ricci vs. Octavis wrestling :p Leaving stuffs on Alec's seat (soorryy :p), watching Taylor bothers Jen. Spend lunch time with Mary and Beth. Eating nachos and cheese plus cookies! :D
9. Current events; shaking head because of the kids -___- answering questions about islam, indonesia, me!, everything. Sharing and disscussing a lot of differennt issues. Watching news and movies. Warm-up questions always interesting! Runaway to Mrs. Kimmel's class to learn calc or go to chorus when Mr. Noblitt out :p
10. Disscussing "Indonesian math" problems with Mrs. Kimmel. Freak out together! hahay~ Sometimes asked something to Mr. Hatley and Mr. Black too, especially matrix (we-hate-it) :p
11. Unique warm-up from Mrs. Pond. The sketch! Talking about random stuffs :p
12. All the greetings and hugs from friends and teachers in the hallway and classrooms, everywhere.
13. Chatting with Cheron and Cath in Spanish. Got candies from Mrs. Denny :p go to bathroom in gym together!
14. GLEE aand interact club
15. Field trip with renassaince! Always fun in the bus! :D
16. Volunteering in St. Michael mid-school. the kids are soo adorable!! :D All the teachers are so kind :)
17. PAX trip with Domna, Ayes, and Merve! :D
18. Being different (i'm the only muslim at school and Asian girls are so limited :p), my accent in their ears..
19. Walking home from afterschool-stay when couldn't find anybody to give ride, besides, I need exercise!!! All the roads, the trees and houses.. Talking to children I met on the way, being barked or followed by stupid dogs, looking at the squarrel, chipmunks, or wild rabbits. Listening to the birds sound.
20. Dad's grilled chicken/beef (haha, however i'm sure i'm gonna miss it when i'm home :p), turkey and gravy!!!
21. Talking to mom about a lot of different things, eating rice together :p Looking for cosmetics, go somewhere :D watching VHS, washing dishes, eating ice cream.. everything!
22. Watching Amy and Ashley dancing :p Listening to Amy's stories, trying to understand Ashley talking :p
23. Staying with Edeth when nobody's home, watching TV together :D
24. Telling stories about my day to Domna and parents in Indo.
25. Receiving monthly stipend and newsletter :p
26. Talking about random stuffs in group.
27. Go to some new places! :D
28. Having straight 100 on report cards --'
29. Go with Mom Maria on the weekends :D
30. "Bolang"-ing with Shasha to Derita area and stay up late, chatting, curcol about random things :D

to be continue.

Azka Bastaman
Quick Post

Hi y'all how's it goin? :)

Oh yes it's been a while since my last post, sorry.
It's.. JUNE!! Too fast, ain't it?
Today is the first exam day (can't believe), but I exempt soo I'm free :D

Hmm, let's see where should I start.
Oh ya first I wanna congrats those who have accepted in college through SNMPTN undangan!
And for you who are still waiting for the result of SNMPTN tulis I send my prayer and best wishes for you.. :)

So I've done with last orientation hiks), prom (love it so much!), spring concert (I cried when I was singing, well everbody did too thou), and (almost) school. I'm just so sad. The info school starts on July 11 just makes it worst! How come I only have a week break? -_____- Then I'm gonna be busy with college thingy. I'm asked to sing in baccalaurate service and.. I will sing national anthem in graduation :D *Gosh, it's gonna be at football stadium!* Can't wait for my NYC-Boston trip too with Shasha and Fara! :D

Packing is kinda frustating, but it's not a nightmare. Guess what, I still have pretty big space in my suitcase so I still can go shooopppiiinngg! *Well, I need to weigh it still. Haha. I wish we're gonna have safe trip home :)

Well now I have one more families :) My friends, teachers, host families, they're all my families..
Well I know when the time is coming I have to be ready no matter how.
I promise i'm coming back, someday.

PS: I can't wait to have my cellphone and laptop again! Fi-nal-ly! :D So I could write as much as I could. yay! 

Azka Bastaman

Rabu, April 27, 2011

Being a Woman


Halo halo hiyaaaa.. *jayus*
I'm still in spring break! Gaston county has longer spring break than other county, but still, despite the fact I prefer go to school than stay at home, as I always say: time is flying here.

Tulisan gue kali ini memang random sekali, maaf saudara-saudara :p Well gara-garanya si Arya ngelindur ngomongin soal nikah muda terus *haha stress* juga gara-gara teman-teman saya yang sering sekali memberondongi saya dengan komentar "kenapa-nggak-cari-bule" -___-

Oke, gue jawab. Gue nggak minat sama yang namanya LDR antarkontinen.. Gue optimis kok someday I'll come back here either for vacation, study or stay.. well we never know! Tapi tanpa kepastian ya gue ogah karena ending dari relationshipnya sangat mudah ditebak :p Dan juga kalo gue pikir punya pasangan yang lahir dan tumbuh besar di budaya yang sama lebih nyaman aja :p Ngga tau sih ya masalah jodoh mah.. Hehe. *nyokap bokap gue pasti geleng-geleng baca tulian gue, haha --'*

If you know me, I'm sure you know how much I love singing though I'm not a professional singer. Dan gue punya mimpi *yang mungkin kedengarannya agak nggak waras* buat punya empat anak: sopran-also-tenor-bass :D Gue inget banget diketawain sama classmates dan guru gue di kelas choir gara-gara gue curhat soal itu :p

Oke, sorry. :p Kembali ke topik. Become a woman for me is a gift, a challange, a dilemma. Let's start from a simple thing kaya prom (again). Seliberalnya Amerika kata orang, semajunya wanita sejak jaman Kartini, tetep aja gue nggak bisa yang namanya ngajak cowok duluan. Hiiyy~ Kadang gue pengen bikin riset deh pandangan cowok soal batasan agresifitas cewek --'

Jadi cewek ituu.. anugerah. Kalo inget sabda Nabi soal 'surga di telapak kaki ibu' dan list orang yang harus kita hormati (ibu-ibu-ibu-ayah tau kan?) rasanya bangga dan bersyukur jadi perempuan. Jadi inget kata mama, perempuan itu setinggi apapun degree pendidikannya or posisi di tempat kerja tetep harus bisa ngurus rumah dan anak: multitasking-red. :) Udah gitu mau pake rok monggo, pake celana juga ngga apa-apa *ngga nyambung*

Jadi cewek itu.. tantangan dan dilemma. Surprisingly, banyak lo temen gue yang passionnya untuk sosial atau karir tinggi yang bilang "Kok gue jadi mikir nggak mau nikah ya?" atau setatement yang sejenis. I know I haven't even been twenty and so do my friends, I know our minds are always changing by the time.. Tapi emang realita kalau jadi perempuan itu membingungkan. Mau berkarir tapi juga mikirin berkeluarga. Kaya gue aja nih mau jadi dokter tapi lamanya itu.. bikin gue merenung. Gue nggak mau salah pilih buat masa depan..

Haduh, lomba nyanyi gue hari Sabtu dan gue belum latihan, zzz -___-
~sorry for this random post!

AB