I Just Can't Believe It


Well, i don't know but seeing calendar made me really shock last night. I just came back from Bogor and read a letter from Binabud about orientation. It's only 24 days left. I'll have orientation and language orientation camp at July 29th until the departure at August 7th. Means i won't go home and meet my family and friends only before i board at the airport. The flight will be at 7.00 P.M, by Lufthansa Airlines (Germany, my dad said).

The letter also told me so many things that i should prepare and do, like buying handycrafts, traditional clothes, and learn some traditional talent. I can sing and playing music, and I start to learn Piring dance this week. I also must create a presentation to promote Indonesia and an essay about leadership. I'm sure these last weeks will be so busy, so i really keep my health. I'll do fasting start from August 9th, and i know won't be easy..

I don't understand how to explain if you ask me what i'm feeling now, i've been crazy with these all feelings, happy-sad, excited-anxious, challanged-afraid.. I have no idea how it'll be. Lil' bit worry because i still don't know yet where I will live, what kind of family and school i will stay with, how the state, the culture, the people is.. I'll miss my family and friends so much. But I don't wanna expect anything. I just hope i'll stay in a warm family and in a great place. I'm sure if i always be kind to people, people 'll be kind to me. :)

Well, i hope i'll get my placement soon, i can adjust myself sorrounding new culture and learn so many things there. And after all, I really thank God for everythin It gives to me.. Praise to Allah SWT, alhamdulillah. :)